Fully Residential School International Symposium 2013 Moments

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This post was suppose to be two years ago, but I guaranteed if I post it back then, I\’ll be a dead corpse.

I\’ll just make it Manglish, shall we?

Okay, by the end of F4, I had enough SBP stuffs, pertandingan sana sini, kem sana sini, like literally enough. It\’s not that I didn\’t learnt alot, eventually I did especially during PRS camps and Karnival Kerjaya. Mostly were memorable experiences and guidelines for my future but the aftermath was the one I despised the most.

The scandals, the gossips and even it\’s not me, someone whom I\’m close with will experience it.
When you\’re stuck in a girl school with literally no good-looking teachers to lay your eyes on, you\’ll be hormonal. delusional. and more adjective to add on. But let\’s just skip all that and I\’ll just narrate on my point of view.

Early 2013, the whole school knew that we\’re going to host this international symposium. I heard from a few students who went to the previous FRSIS that it was a big thanggggg. So I just assumed that it was same as chaotic as the HKSBP 2009. I heard some of the debaters including Sasab wanted to represent the school and they went to see Bonda. Tyah, Nazatul and even Pau assured me to become one of the AJK Makanan.

\” Jom lah Zet. Senang je, tuang makanan gitu gitu je. Dapat food extra \”

Hearing the \” food extra \” was the main reason I said yes. We even walked to the Biro DM\’s dorm to confirmed our names. Nothing was on my mind about FRSIS, just some addmaths tutorials, some essays, some presentation to be done with until it was english mass one day.

By the end of the class, I had to lock the Dewan Kuliah and return the remote but some of the students were gathering at the front. Just waiting for them to clear off, Deeba approached me telling that I was selected to become in the FRSIS team.

\” Aku jadi ajk makanan laaaa…\”

\” Teacher pilih \”

\” Teacher mana? \”

\” They said Bonda pilih \”

When I went to the teacher\’s room, Ms Laila was smiling and I knew right that moment that she gave my name. \” Teacher, I can\’t do this\” \”Who says? I know you can. I asked all the english teachers and they say you can\” \” But teacher… \” \”No but but. It\’s a privilege to represent the school\”
I felt like a bomb was put onto my shoulder. I didn\’t knew anything about symposium. I didn\’t went for Model United Nation in Sri Lanka like they went last year. The only thing I knew was ; I\’m dead.

When I went back to dorm and told my dear friends, they were bitter. I apologized saying that I didn\’t volunteer to join pun. My supposed to be partner, Rahilia had to withdraw because A\’fiani was joining the team as well so she had to help Shu and Aira in her Biro. So, Rahmah got her golden chance because she was supposed to go for FRSIS the previous year.

From the beginning I was anxious of our topic ; Green Initiatives in Automotives. I didn\’t have a clue on how engine works let alone their green energy ?!
But after a few weeks of no prep malam and spending time at the computer lab, watching videos of hybrid cars and electric car, emailing proton perodua and MAI., searching for the green initiatives act and regulations, understanding the cradle-to-cradle concept, understanding how to use Prezi, practising how to talk, calming down Rahmah amd juggling with all the batch matters, house matters, I didn\’t have the time to even breathe. Okay ni propa.

The only thing I like about FRSIS was I got to spent a lot of time with Rahmah which usually I can\’t.
So when the real day of FRSIS has come, I was the least to get excited. From the computer lab, we could see many buses flooded into our school compound. Being ignorant as I usually be, I found that Prezi was soooooooo annoyying and ended up copy pasting everything into Microsoft Power Point.
The school was fully prepared, tip top, squeeky clean, very stunning, too goo to be true kind of condition and most of them had went back for the semester break.

In class, I had dozen of homework. Lisa diligently wrote down all my homeworks, what book on what pages, what essays, what physics notes must be down arranged in a bag. Im so touched of her action and the thought of teachers giving us tres tres tres homework.

So that night was the orientation. It started quite late and all my friends whom wasn\’t participating was waving me off to prep. I was like \’ nak ikuuuttttt \’ . Oh I know this symposium is international but please don\’t act like you\’re from overseas. I had plenty orientation in my life, and the least I could find \’fun\’ was this orientation. We had to get in group and chant some rythm words? Gosh. and my group won first? *tepuk dahi*

I think omen was on my side because this chekas boy from sdar who was and still very famous of his debating skills and his art of winning in an argument was in our theme. hooray..
Rahmah and I had cold feet whenever we see him and others too. To compare to other teams on other theme, we were the least appealing. like a wallflower, and I like it like that,

I was suffocating the whole time when I see the seberang school\’s team came closer. There was emir, haziq and many more but X remain distanced. He wouldnt want to talk to me for god sake.
I made the least of friends I guess, because what I knew after dinners, I\’d just pull Rahmah to the basketball court and enjoyed the stars while other people were still mingling in the great hall.

The night before presentation, I slept late. Late to the world, but a fresh new beginning to our world kan tyah. How could you sleep when you know you can\’t see one of your closest friend around dah?
Thank God Rahmah did\’t ask much and proceeded to present as usual. It went well alhamdulillah, and alhamdulillah I qada\’ my sleep right after the session in the hall during the finale session. Lol.

While others were talking and exchanging business card (lol), I\’d jot down notes and zoned out from the world. My mind was at home, my heart was out of the hall. I couldn\’t feel the enjoyment of having new acquaintances or basically, participating in an international symposium. None.
But don\’t get me wrong, I am truly grateful of all the knowledge I gained. Spending more time with Rahmah, Deeba, Afi, Nadia, Ya.

But to be honest, if I was given a choice, I\’d erased all the memories. I wouldn\’t have to suffer all those hurt, pain, lost.

Amazingly, this people from the unwanted past, remains strong in my future, insyaAllah. Much bolder and wiser.