Alhamdulillah, words can never describe this feeling of being able to finish my first year. Well, exams results belakang kira eh, hee. I seriously, literally felt like it was just yesterday when I’m done with BTN, and had my A Levels results in my hands (yeah I know, it does sounds so cliché), and now I’m done with my first year of undergraduate.
If you ask me, how was my life for these past 8 months? Oh I tell you, nothing short but hectic. It was overwhelming. I simply have to say, I didn’t expect life was and still a roller coaster ride. But I ain’t want to sound like a Wisdom Sifu meditating under the Wisdom Tree. I, myself, am still going through a process which the results has not been anticipated yet. I, myself is a work in progress. I, myself can not boast to other people that I’ve achieved and learnt so much from (to me) so little time of 8 months.
Let me tell you, from the pictures I’ve taken, and the stories that lies behind it, and how it makes me ponder that life has been overwhelming for me.
For the first few months here, Tesco has been great in providing me the best comfort food. Chocolate milk, Doritos, Bens & Jerry which resulted in the extra fat I’m carrying now. But despite knowing it is so bad for your health, I still do consume it. Similar to life, despite knowing and fully aware of the bad actions you’ve taken, you still place both of your feet in the mess. I assume, humans never learn before they fall. Like the Malay saying goes sudah terhantuk, baru terngadah.
On weekdays, I spent most my time in Uni. As I live off campus, it is reallyyyy tiring for me to go back everyday when the sun has set down. To be honest, at the beginning, Essex was not my first choice. Never did I have any intention to go to this Uni because my dream is to go to Warwick Law School. Warwick is a household name with good rankings attached to it whereas Essex is just beginning to bloom because it’s a quite young university. Nevertheless, after a few months here, I never look back. If fate leads me here, then I’ll must do the best out of it because Muslims can not do any less than the best. The environment is really welcoming and my Law Lecturers are the best I could have. Ginee, my Obligation lecturer and tutor has been really friendly and accommodating, if not I would ended up thinking Tort and Contract are just some boring subjects. Simon, my Criminal Law tutor ; even though at first I was really intimidated by his style of teaching because he recite cases like the names of his exes (hihi sorry Mr Cooper!). Like Collin case for this legal principle and White for the other one I’m like whoa whoa can you slow down a bit I’m seriously new in reading law especially criminal. But Alhamdulillah at the end of the day, the sweat and tears completing his tutorials is so worthy (except for the fact that this girl, yes, zethy has been sleeping in lectures that was on every Friday on a 4pm?!!).
I personally believe that what makes a good life is to have great people inside it and no matter how far you run away, human connection is vital. Besides theoretical principles, these amazing people had put me grounded. Rahmah and Lubna has been a great supporter, chasing the dream since the beginning, the ones that keeps motivating me and hearing my rambles. With these two, it started way beyond time.
When we arrived in Colchester, we were terribly clueless. Not to forget because of the jetlag, I was having a rough time trying to make sure that my eyes stay open because if not, I might be bumping on to some random strangers. We had Kak Aina, the furthest to the left, beside zethy the cutie hihi, to help us to get through the essentials. I mean who in the world would trouble themselves for some midget strangers? But Kak Aina and Kak Syara, and Kak Nurul and Kak Nabilah have the purest hearts. They didn’t mind spending their time and energy to make us feel like home, making sure everything was complete from the essentials to not so essentials like catering to our mengada ngada perangai. We owe you big time Kakaks, may Allah bless you guys always.
Since Intec, the girls and I had always been inseperable. Missing Yasmin in the picture tho. I think among other classes in A Levels, we were one of a kind. We think differently from our batchmates, making we bonded easily among ourselves. Law was our unity and has always been the thing that made us stick together. Because you know, Lawyers ain’t gonna be friends with people aimlessly duhh..
But with these law peeps, you see yourself in them, their struggle is your struggle. It doesn’t matter which university you go to, but when it comes to Public Law, all of us sighed. We tell each others on how they do their essays and how their lecturers are in the lectures and boy didn’t we have a good laugh about it. To especially Malin, Sarah and Raudhah, if I were to be alone without you guys in Essex, I’ll be ruined.
and of course, my housemates. The ones that took care of me, baked for me, helped me through thick and thin, the ones who are really patient when my foodsick strikes. I mean if i were to live with myself, I’ll be doomed but these girls managed and they deserved a good round of applause!!!! I’ve always been afraid with the bad housemates kinda streotypes but alhamdulillah Allah granted me the best people in my life. I never can be any less ungrateful for this.
“If home is a person, then it might be you”