Peace be upon you my dear readers whom I haven’t wrote to in many many many months,
Alhamdulillah I graduated from University of Essex! I was over the moon to make my parents proud, I had just a slight bummer where my results were really close to achieving good grades. I shall redeemed that for my Master’s degree.
Yeap, I am crazy, taking the next step of this academia life where I know I will be definitely doomed. It has been 4 weeks in Bristol and life has not been rainbows and butterfly. I am struggling, struggling to fit in. Struggling to find that ultimate purpose and the motivation to ace this. This weakling is terrified with the obstacles ahead but hey who doesn’t. There’s a lot of uncertainties in front of us and yet those who succeed are the ones who go for it!
I think I have tried my absolute best in fitting it. I smiled a lot, I made friends but people don’t want to be friends with me (no this is not a blog of a five year old) (and yes I have moved on from that phase of ‘teacher, she doesn’t want to befriend me!’).
Bristol is deffo a different place from Essex where majority of its students are locals and my friends in Essex were much from the international scene. But it’s okay, it’s not that I’m the quiet depressed kid sitting in one corner not participating. Show them kindness and everything will be fine (pray that i’ll stay sane for the rest of the year peeps!)
I’m currently enrolled to a very niche LLM (Masters of Law) programme called LLM in Health, Law and Society. Moreover, the master’s degree I’m specialising is a very intriguing socio legal subjects where we discuss on health inequalities, public health, the governance of health and social well being ( i am basically listing down my subject but who cares hehe) . The amount of reading I need to do is crazyyyyyyyy (not that I’m complaining but girl sometimes need to let this thing off this chest) and even though I’m reading so much I yet to understand everything. Am I the only bimbo in class?
Oh God, I really need your guidance and miracle because I won’t be able to survive this without YOU. * thus I’m whispering very small voice of : help *